Who will I be, when I cease to be myself?
I've never been very good at condensing this sort of information into a few adjectives for this sort of "about me" display. I like to do creative and cultured things: write, play the piano, draw, paint, sing, and so forth ...but those who know me well know that the most likely place to find me is cemented to my computer chair, fingers flying across the keys, immersed completely into an online gaming world from which the only escape is to-the-bone fatigue in which your body can no longer support itself upright in the chair, at which point you drag your laptop into the bedroom, and play there.
And so I spend a large percentage of my life pretending to be someone or something that I'm not, that's the beauty of virtual reality, of the MMO, of the RPG - and when I can't do that, I lose myself into my books, to the alien landscape of Arrakis, to the cold metal of Orson Scott Card's Capitol, or the lush palaces of Carey's Terre D'Ange. Because of this, I find it hard to talk about my "real life," because what am I if not a seeker, I just seek on a different plane of what we call reality. I am made from the images absorbed into my brain, to the myriad of planets I've travelled, the stars I've danced among, the imaginations of a thousand writers into which I have embedded myself. Their worlds, my world, like drumbeats in the background, like a heartbeat softly thudding between the pages .
I also maintain a myspace page where I keep in touch with people. I'm very bad about email & worse about the phone, so that's probably the most reliable way of contacting me, unless you're playing the same game I am ;)
...and Shadowfade?
It started out as something small (don't all great things?). A guild we created in one of the many online games, one we stuck around in long enough to actually buy a domain name and make a website for. But then it became something else; as we hopped from game to game like stones skipping on the surface of a lake, Shadowfade ceased being about the game and became more about myself. And today? Today I'm not sure what it is. Maybe after you've clicked around for a bit you'll have your own idea. Its a space that is being used, a void that is being filled in one way or another. You choose.